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The School Employee’s Death Investigation

I'm Thinking of Ending Things

Post-event conversations gradually assemble a portrait of an isolated worker while revealing how little his colleagues understood before his death.

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Shock in the CommunityShock in the Community from "I'm Thinking of Ending Things". Shock in the Community An unprecedented event Several speakers express disbelief that something so terrible could happen in their workplace.
Shock in the Community An unprecedented event Several speakers express disbelief that something so terrible could happen in their workplace. They describe sleeplessness and difficulty accepting the news. Distance from the dead man They admit that few people were close to him and call him a loner. Their shock exists alongside an acknowledged lack of intimacy.
Signs in RetrospectSigns in Retrospect from "I'm Thinking of Ending Things". Signs in Retrospect Physical changes noticed Colleagues recall a rash, sweating, moments of staring, and unusually loud music during breaks.
Signs in Retrospect Physical changes noticed Colleagues recall a rash, sweating, moments of staring, and unusually loud music during breaks. At the time, each detail seemed private or insignificant. Concern arrives afterward The witnesses reinterpret old observations once the death has occurred. The investigation shows how warning signs can remain invisible without conversation.
Notebooks and SilenceNotebooks and Silence from "I'm Thinking of Ending Things". Notebooks and Silence Writing goes unexamined Colleagues remember the employee keeping notebooks but never asked what he wrote.
Notebooks and Silence Writing goes unexamined Colleagues remember the employee keeping notebooks but never asked what he wrote. One person recalls his precise handwriting. The content remains unknown The speakers delay reading the notebooks, even while seeking an explanation for the death. Their hesitation mirrors the novel’s broader failure to know another person’s inner life.
A Life Outside WorkA Life Outside Work from "I'm Thinking of Ending Things". A Life Outside Work A private history emerges The employee lived in an old farmhouse, avoided socializing, and spent breaks alone in his pickup.
A Life Outside Work A private history emerges The employee lived in an old farmhouse, avoided socializing, and spent breaks alone in his pickup. He had worked at the school for decades. Ordinary isolation becomes legible The details describe a person coworkers saw but did not know. His routines become part of the posthumous effort to understand what happened.
No Simple ExplanationNo Simple Explanation from "I'm Thinking of Ending Things". No Simple Explanation Evidence does not settle motive The investigators find writing that mixes a story with the writer’s life, but cannot determine whether it…
No Simple Explanation Evidence does not settle motive The investigators find writing that mixes a story with the writer’s life, but cannot determine whether it explains the death. Facts and inventions remain entangled. The dead remain partly unknowable The conversations end without a complete account of motive. The investigation echoes the novel’s insistence that outward evidence cannot fully disclose thought.
Immediately after the death
During the early investigation
As coworkers are interviewed
During later interviews
After the manuscript is found